Living with STDs

I am so miserable. Even though it’s a “curable” STD, I couldn’t believe it when I was diagnoised with syphilis. The worst part is how I got it…..through oral. A mistake I usually DO NOT make, but suffering the consequences. DO NOT ever believe ANYBODY if they say you can not catch anything through oral. They are MISEDUCATED!!!!

I feel so dirty!!! I have NO desire to even be with anyone anymore. It is sooooo embarrasing. But the worst part is feeling like HIV is around the corner. I mean a person catched syphilis and it doesn’t really seem like HIV is that far from syphilis. It’s defiantely an eye opener. Oh yeah and then last year I was diagnoised with herpes, but the worst part is that I NEVER had any symptoms.

By doing some reading and research of herpes after hearing someone I used to be with probably had it. The only thing I knew is that I had numerous checkups and was cleared, but then I found out that unless symptoms are there they DO NOT test for herpes. I had to demand a herpes test, which is by blood and it came back positive. So all in a nutshell I wouldn’t have known if I hadn’t demanded ALL tests even though I didn’t have NO symptoms, and you don’t really have to have intercourse to get herpes, you can even be rubbing each other down there without clothes and get it if it’s shedding without symptoms!