Living with STDs

I WAS 12 YEARS OLD WHEN I FIRST STARED HAVING SEX. I WAS SO EXCITED TO DO WHAT THE OTHER GIRLS WAS DOING, SO I WENT OUT AND STARTED HAVING SEX WITH ANY BOY THAT WANTED IT. I ALWAYS USED PROTECTION BUT IT WAS THIS ONE TIME THAT THIS BOY THAT I HAD A CRUSH ON ASKED ME IF WE NEEDED TO USES A CONDOM AND I SAID NO (BEING YOUNG AND DUMB) SO WE DID IT WITH OUT PROTECTION A COUPLE OF TIMES AND I DIDN’T THINK ANYTHING ABOUT GETTING BURNED.

WEEKS WENT BY AND I WAS AT THE POOL AND I WAS ITCHING IN MY VAGINAL AREA AND I FELT IT AND I FELT LITTLE BUMPS DOWN THERE, I THOUGHT THAT THE CHLORINE HAD BROKE ME OUT. I WAS STAYING AT MY AUNT’S HOUSE FOR THE SUMMER AND I DIDN’T WANT TO TELL HER BECAUSE SHE WOULD TELL MY PARENTS THAT I WAS HAVING SEX, SO I ASKED MY BIG COUSIN IF SHE WOULD TAKE ME TO THE CLINIC AND THEY TOLD THAT I HAD CHLAMYDIA AND THAT I HAD TO TAKE THESE 10 PILLS AND PUT IN MY VAGINA, BUT THEY ONLY HAD 5 AT THE TIME, SO I WAS SUPPOSE TO COME BACK THE NEXT DAY AND I NEVER DID.

THE SUMMER WAS OVER AND IT WAS TIME FOR ME TO GO BACK HOME AND I WAS HAVING THESE VERY BAD ABDOMINAL PAINS , MY FATHER WAS ASKING ME WHAT WAS WRONG AND I COULDN’T TELL HIM CAUSE I DIDNT KNOW. I JUST KNEW THAT MY STOMACH WAS HURTING AND I HAD A REAL BAD ODOR AND SOME CREAMY STUFF IN MY PANTIES, MONTHS WENT BY WITH THESE PAINFUL SYMPTOMS. THEN ONE DAY MY MOTHER CALLED AND SAID SHE KNEW THAT I HAD SEX BEFORE AND ONE OF THE BOYS THAT I HAD SEX WITH HAD A DISEASE AND HE SAID THAT I WAS ONE OF THE GIRLS THAT HE HAD SEX WITH, BUT WE USED A CONDOM

MY MOTHER MADE UP THIS LIE TO TELL MY DAD SO THAT I CAN GO TO MY AUNT’S HOUSE, AND SHE COULD TAKE ME TO THE HOSPITAL TO GET CHECKED OUT. THE TEST CAME BACK THAT, I WENT SOME TIME WITH UNTREATED CHLAMYDIA AND I HAVE DEVELOPED P.I.D (PELVIC INFLAMMATORY DISEASE) AND I HAD TO GET A SHOT OF PENICILLIN IN THE BUTTOCKS AND THAT’S WAS PAINFUL. THEN SOME DOCTORS CAME IN AND SAID THAT I NEEDED TO TALK TO SOME SOCIAL WORKERS AND THEY WERE ASKING ME IF MY FATHER TOUCH ME AND HAVE HE TRIED TO HAVE SEX WITH ME AND ALL THESE CRAZY QUESTIONS ABOUT MY DAD DOING SEXUAL THINGS WITH ME . I THOUGHT THAT MY DAD WAS GOING TO FIND OUT ABOUT THIS FOR REAL CAUSE I JUST KNEW THAT THEY WERE GOING TO DO A FOLLOW UP ON THIS, AND I WOULD GET TOOK AWAY FROM MY DAD FOR SOMETHING THAT HE DIDNT EVEN DO, AND THAT WAS SCARY.

THEY NEVER DID CALL HIM OR ANYTHING SO WAS HAPPY I THOGHT THAT IT WAS OVER, BUT THEN THE DOCTOR SAID THAT I WILL HAVE TO GO TO THE HEALTH DEPARTMENT TO GET AN HIV TEST. I WAS SO SCARED AND I KNEW THAT I HAD TO TELL MY DAD AND THAT WAS THE SCARIEST PART OF IT ALL TO ME AT THE TIME.I GOT TESTED AND TREATED AND EVERYTHING WAS BACK TO NORMAL EXCEPT MY DAD KNEW THAT I WAS HAVING SEX AND HE KNEW THAT I LIED AND HAD AN STD ALL THOSE TIMES I WAS HAVING REAL BAD STOMACH PAINS.

I WAS EMBARRASSED AND MAD AT MY SELF FOR PUTTING MY DAD THROUGH ALL THAT MESS. HE NEVER SAID ANYTHING ABOUT IT EVER SINCE THAT DAY. I AM 21 YEARS OLD NOW AND I WANT TO HAVE A BABY AND NOW I DONT THINK I CAN BECAUSE OF THIS WHOLE SITUATION. I THINK THAT THE PID SCARRED ME FOR LIFE. I JUST WANT TO SAY EVEN THOUGH YOU ARE SCARED PLEASE LET SOMEONE KNOW SO YOU CAN GET THE HELP BEFORE IT IS TO LATE.